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It's amazing how quickly things can be thrown off balance when your not careful...

The odd thing is that many of the things that are throwing me off, right now, are not even of this moment, but anticipations; moving to a new place, a new house, a new job, awaiting a new baby...

Being in the car accident was the first bump outside of the routine, then spending a few days in the hospital with a sore back, I stopped meditating and haven't been able to get back into any consistent routine. Suddenly everything started to feel like a dream, but not an insightful one, more of a hazy, out of touch with reality, waiting for life to start happening again instead of paying attention to the life that's passing now.

The good thing is, just become aware of this state allows me to now observe it it, and just that simple act of mindfulness has been centering.

Just before writing this, I came across a photo I took at the Tibet Museum in McLeod Ganj of a photo of the Dalai Lama when he first crossed into India in 1951. I found it a bit of inspiration how much of a centered human being he has remained even with all the adversity he's face over the past sixty years.